doing something

i used to be a big doer.  lately though, doing anything is hard most of the time.  but the everyday, necessary things are the hardest.  cleaning, doing dishes, doing laundry, cooking, shopping, getting out of bed.  (hmm. . . still wonder what my job is?)  however, i've discovered that i don't have such a hard time doing something if that something happens to be unnecessary and creative.  it's almost like the cravings i'd get when i was pregnant.  why watermelon?  i don't know, but i'm pretty sure if i could just get some damn watermelon i'd be feeling a whole lot better!  now it's: draw!  really, draw?  i've never drawn anything better than a stick figure without a nose!  well, guess what?  drawing makes me feel just a tich better.  not always, but sometimes.  also blogging.  also painting pots.  also gardening (but only sometimes).  and i have a hunch there might be other things, too.  i'm not going to go out looking for them, but i have a feeling they might come to me like an unearthly desire for an egg salad sandwich in the middle of the night.